Wow!

My last post was March 2011!!  Almost a year to the day. And my last post says it all.  Jackson.  We are coming up on the one year anniversary of making the worst decision I've ever had to make in my life.  Not a day goes by that I don't think about my little man.  I still expect him to be at the backdoor after a pee break or at my feet when I am clearing dishes from the table.  My heart aches that he is no longer with us but I do know that it was time.  No matter...it is NEVER easy.  At least he was in my arms when he went to sleep and in the house he knew as home when he slipped away. 

I have been gone for a while. Life has been so busy with a toddler...it is hard enough to find time to take a shower, not to mention sitting down, collecting my ever-scattered thoughts and then transferring them to a blog!  But I really miss writing and also felt it important to attribute many of my posts to the family addition that is growing rapidly in my belly!

Yep - H is going to be a big sister at the ripe old age of 2-1/2!

I won't try to catch you up on the last year.  Partly due to my lack of energy and partly due to the fact that I don't have enough brain cells to capture a lot of it.  It was a good year, it was a bad year, it was a year of surprises.  Ok, you are caught up!

Going back to mystery meat in my belly...I know I had a separate blog for H when she was in that position so it seems only right that this baby get the same recognition.  Unfortunately, I don't think I have the motivation to go through designing and coordinating an entirely separate blog.  Horrible, I know.  This will be the very first issue in a whole line of "H gets everything and I get nothing" drama that we will soon face!  Sibling rivalry even in utero!

I'm going to start small today and work my way up to better posts (as subjective as that comment is).  I have mixed emotions about being back.  I miss writing and having this time to regurgitate my day in the life...but I wonder how many days/weeks/months I can keep up this mojo!  Maybe you can cheer me on and let me know you care about my every waking minute (it's ok, you can lie).  In the meantime, I will look for an assistant who can follow me around, take notes and do my posts for me!

Goodnight all!  Hail to the long lost blog!