My Weekly Meltdown

I feel like I have an anxiety meltdown about once or twice a week lately.  Mostly it has to do with the cleanliness of the house, or lack thereof.  I feel like I have so much to do but can't seem to break away from the bottles and the diapers to get it done!  And then, days like today, I want to spend time with T because he has the day off but I look around at the piles of laundry and the other piles of whatnot and it makes my heart beat out of my chest.  So frustrating!

I am trying not to let the day be ruined because of my peaked anxiety level.  So I push everything back in its little spot in my chest and hope for the best.  But it is still there and something I will need to finangle for most of the day.  My new life can be quite overwhelming at times.

And now, after hours of trying to get H down for her nap, she has fallen asleep in my lap right before we are to head out on our errands.  While T was getting her car seat out of the laundry room, the sounds of junk falling on the floor rings through the kitchen reminding me of what I really need to be doing today.  The piles of laundry that I continuously try to melt away get piled up on more and more after each daily shower.  The stinch from the refrigerator reminds me that a) I need to clean it out and b) I need to go to the grocery to reload it with things I will need to clean out in a couple of weeks.  Tay's bedroom door is closed again...you know what that means.  There is a HUGE box in the office that T's new work computer came in...I wonder how long that will be there.  There are still a couple of miscellaneous BS on the guest bed that has been there for a couple of weeks now.

And, on with the show!!  Heading out to run errands with T and H.  Hopefully hitting Cheesecake Factory for lunch and BevMo to get makings for dinner! ;P